Faith, trust and pixie dust

This isn't something that I would normally do but I'm trying to have faith. Please help him to find his path so that he may be happy again. It kills me that he's going through stuff on his own and the only way I can help is by leaving him alone. It doesn't even matter if his path leads him away from me/us. I just want him to be happy.

I've been praying for both myself and him. I think it's made a difference to my well-being so now I'm hoping that it would do the same for him.

He'll never know but it doesn't matter.

Legal

Being an adult seemed to be so much fun as a kid. How we wished that we could speed up the process and grow up and spread our wings. One step closer to that 'dream' but happiness is still far away. Don't be mistaken.. It's not that I'm not appreciative of my life. I am. I really am. But I feel like I'm stuck in a rut.

Hit so many milestones in these couple of months.. I've grown. Had my birthday. Went for my University interview. Got my acceptance notification.. So I'm officially gonna be a uni kid starting June.

But my personal life.. I feel like I've drifted from my friends; best friends and close friends alike. We barely text/talk/meet up anymore. Everyone seems to be too busy to spend time with each other, but yet have all the time in the world to meet up with their other friends.

I want to believe that there's a reason why things happen the way that they do. Why some friendships last while others don't. But the ending of THAT friendship has really haunted me. It's been a month or two.. and yet I still dream of the day when you will reach out to me/us. Why are you doing this to us? Being ashamed doesn't make a difference.. not unless you're willing to do something about it.

busy busy day

Had a busy day out with Edna today. Chunkfest 2014 + Woodshed 204 + Emblazon 2014.

Full post written on:
http://dayre.me/charisthawesome/42nz2bCyAM

Life

Life has its ups and downs. Life is a basically a rollercoaster right? So what is the one thing that we can do? Just smile, grit our teeth and hang on tight. Technically that's three things but who's counting right?

I guess what triggered this post is that life has changed me to become a person who I don't really like. I've become more negative, paranoid, judgemental and basically pretty bitchy. That's not who I am. So the journey begins where I need to start being myself again, and not letting life's hurdles dictate the kind of person that I should be.

Growth

The most important thing about being human is knowing that we are not perfect. No matter what we do, we will never achieve the perfect results. What I learnt during my studies is that as a teacher, we should not look for perfection in results, but that there is a noticeable growth during the process.

Three months into this full time teaching job and I have already broken down twice. My temperament has been affected and so has my health. The migraine attacks come more frequently and get worse each time. Needless to say.. my body does not deal with stress very well.

I thank God for the strength to keep moving on and not giving up. I thank Him for the people that he's placed in my life who have provided me with so much strength and support.

Yes, life is hard. Life isn't fair. But that's just how it all works.

"When things get tough, the tough get going".

Count your blessings

I remember how we used to talk about forming partnerships and how the ideal way of handling situations would be. But all the theories and stuff fly out the window when tempers flare. Sometimes I wish that the other party would know how we feel. Teaching is not the easiest job in the world, and the children are not the only ones whom we try to teach.

Thanking God for the wonderfully supportive colleagues. It would have been a horrible day without them.

And on the basis that everything happens for a reason and that what goes up must come down.. I believe that what went up was my temper was due to the conflicts.. and what came down was the 🔥 when I received the message from Sunsilk Singapore. Congrats to the other four participants who won the hamper too 😊

Faith

I know everything happens for a reason and that God has his reasons for why he lets things happen a certain way. But at times I would really appreciate it if there was a sign to show me what my future would be like. I look around and I see my friends and colleagues with their loved ones. Maybe I'm just not in the right part of my life to have a relationship yet.. but then when is the right time gonna be?

Trying desperately to find myself and have faith that things will all work out. 🙏